Get to know my hole

theholeofmark is a singer-songwriter from London and he has ADHD. He supported Tori Amos on her European Tour which included performing at The Royal Albert Hall!!! He signed to Downtown Music Publishing. Did the rounds, writing with the likes of Rock Mafia, Duke Dumont, Red One, Amanda Ghost and Jakwob to name but a few. He featured vocals on Kraak and Smaak’s single “All I Want Is You”, nominated for Best Indie Dance Track at the International Dance Music Awards. He co-wrote "Constellation Prize" for Robin Bengtsson which went double platinum and reached number 2 in the Swedish charts. Then one day he took a good hard look in the mirror asked “Who Are You?”

Mark is known for his powerful vocals and unique writing style. He tattoos the titles of his works on his body, and his eccentric character has seen him develop into a consummate performer.

So what’s new. Currently Mark is unsigned and independent. Step by Step he’s climbing out of his ADHD Hole on instagram youtube ticktock facebook. Please listen to Step 1 and latest releases “Then and Now” versions on Spotify, itunes etc with free download C-Sides in the secret room.

THEHOLEOFMARK has been but a sperm till now, making its way to the golden egg, growing day by day; ready to burst into full blown BORN-NESS!!! No more people-pleasing please, just Mark, theholeofmark being himself.

So let’s get to work, and while you’re at it listen to Mark dj good music here. It’ll help you get moving.

Here are a few quotes for you.

Tim Rice - "echoes of the great Ray Davies”

Kevin Spacey - "his uniqueness informs a musical style with a real independence of character which you won't find anywhere else, plus he has great ass”

Alex Zane - "Epic or what"

So that’s my bio but this below is what I am doing “NOW”! Developing “THEHOLEOFMARK’s”. Starting with “THEN”, by listening to my first album “F-Sharp” that I completed as Mark Hole “THEN” and pick 4 tracks to do as “THEHOLEOFMARK” “NOW”. I will be adding my journey to this page as it unfolds. Enjoy.

Imagine you’re a singer, songwriter, and your father was the second most influential person in the music industry.

My name is Mark Hole. I’m a singer songwriter from London and my father was Max Hole the CEO of universal music.

Universal music group is the biggest record label in the world. It owns a third of the market. It is in fact, the only record label to have faced the monopoly law.

The monopoly law was implemented to prevent any single company from owning more than a third of it’s market.

Therefore, when universal acquired EMI, they had to, buy law, sell parts of their company. one part being the record label that owned blur? Have you heard of that band? Whoo Hoo.

So you can quite literally and officially say that universal is the biggest and the baddest of them all.

As a result, my friends and I called universal “The Death Star”. Because my father was second in command, that would make him “Darth Vader” making me Luke Skywalker fighting for a rebel cause. Arhhhhhhh

“Don’t Be Silly, Mark”

Seriously, this 5 part documentary is primarily about ADHD but also the silliness within all of us that allows our physical and mental health to slip further and further away, but before we get into that, I would like to share with you my story so you can fully understand my why.

It’s safe to say that like any child in this world, I looked up to my father. As a result, I started writing music. The first notable song I wrote was called. “Dirty Base” and when I presented it to my father. The first thing he said was, “I don’t like the word Loo in a song.”

At the same time he had just signed “André 3000” releasing hit song “roses” really smell of poo oo oo

It was from that moment, I sensed that the path ahead would be challenging.

Nevertheless, I persevered. Take a look at this I said, and this, showcasing my work, it became an unhealthy obsession to seek approval from my father, however, through my own efforts, I managed to acquire the same manager as Paul Oakenfold, Billy Ocean, the Noisettes, and Cat Stevens. Woo hoo.

Dad? Dad???

Then I had the opportunity to support Tori Amos on her European tour and performed at the Royal Albert Hall.

Woo Hoo. Even Gandhi’s played there.

Dad? Come on???

Later that year, I secured a publishing deal with Downtown music publishing in New York and collaborated with artists from all around the world. I sang on a hit in Holland. I helped write a song that went number 2 in Sweden. Even, three time Grammy award winner “RedOne” had taken notice and proceeded to sing my praises in a meeting with my father. Followed with an invite to write with him in Sweden, LA and Morocco.

Woo Hoo... Daddy? Come on Man. I’ve done well haven’t I haven’t I???

I truly started to lose my sense of reality.

Then one day out of the blue, my father called me into his office for a meeting. We talked for a while, and then he simply said the most amazing words I had ever heard.

He said

“would you like me to use my influence to help your career?”

Trying to remain cool I simply said
“yes”

He smiled at me and said alright I will be away on business in India for three days and when I return, we will figure things out. Would you like to attend a Queen concert with me when I get back?

“Man, amazing, yes I would love that”.

Those were the happiest three days of my life. Unfortunately, while he was away, he contracted a rare brain virus called encephalitis which caused him to loose his memory of the past 20 years.

So I decided to take a six month break from music which turned into six years. During that time I become very depressed, put on three stone and drank a lot. Friends became not friends.
It was an incredibly challenging time.

And that’s all I’m gonna say about that.

I suppose because I held all of my value based on what my father thought and was desperately seeking his approval. I felt like all was lost... my whole reason of being, had died.

Anyway, I learned some invaluable lessons. What truly matters in life. Family, friends, connection, meaning purpose, but above all, health. Which I was not.

So after enduring those six long arduous somber years, a friend of mine informed me that the Troubadour, a renowned music venue in London was seeking a lead singer to host an open mic night.

I expressed my interest, they said OK.... let’s do it. So every Wednesday. I started finding my voice again. I cannot even come close to describing the sensation, as I rekindled my ability to sing, I could quite literally feel the weight of depression, very gradually but just enough, lifting from my soul.

and there it was. I realized that I wasn’t depressed because my father was ill. i’m sure it had its part to play, but in truth, I was depressed, because I had stop singing.

Arhhhhhh

The body holds the power and my body was telling me. “sing. express. create and loose some bloody weight”

And so I found my love for music again. Only this time not for my dad or anyone else but for myself.

So I now I knew that singing was “what” I had to do, I knew “how” to do it, I just didn’t know why yet. “Why” haven’t I been singing? “What” has been holding you back? “That’s” when THEHOLEOFMARK was born.

I began experimenting every day to try and find out why? Who is THEHOLEOFMARK. What does he want? What is he made of?

Of course COVID-19 would introduce itself at this time.... but that didn’t stop me. No. I just resumed writing performing and creating content. Woo Hoo.

And with this new sense of self and the will to find my true identity, I burst back into life, sharing my creations with the world right or wrong. I was a man possessed with one mission… to find my why????? But still I struggle, I kept on getting lost in my million ideas only adding to my confusion. What was I missing?

Well, I knew that I was very unhealthy mentally and physically, so I started searching to better understand myself.

That's when I found a book called "Scattered Minds" by Gabor Mate.

Gabor Mate is a leading expert in the condition known as “attention deficit hyperactivity disorder”.

It might come “NOT” as a surprise to you how many people have suspected that I had ADHD, quite a few people actually and oh my God, when I read this book, every single page I could relate to and understand. I couldn't put it down until the very last word. Or number. So, at this point in the documentary, which is all about ADHD, I would like to encourage you, if you suspect that you might have ADHD or if you know anyone who you think might have ADHD, get them to read "Scattered Minds" by Gabor Mate. It changed my life. Read this book, and you will know whether you have ADHD or not.

I was misdiagnosed at the age of nine due to my ability to remain still during examination. However, had they consulted my teachers, parents, or friends, they would have unanimously confirmed that I indeed do have ADHD.

This realization shed light on various aspects of my life, such as my tendency to seek approval, oh the challenging life of the people pleaser, taking things personally, and struggling in relationships that don't even serve me.

The more I learned about what that means to have unmanaged ADHD, your whole life, there is no doubt in my mind that it just had a negative effect on my life. So I would like to share my story of self discovery, as I learn how to deal with my ADHD, so I help others as I become the person I’ve always wanted to be.

Through daily posts, I have already discovered EMDR therapy, cold therapy, Fasting and Psilocybin to uncover my true self with a simply message to all.

Don't undermine your health and the value of your life. Make it meaningful.

This is my sincere proclamation: "Don't Be Silly" is a five-part documentary series, and this is the first installment,

“My Message Of Intent”

I realise now that creating a documentary requires much more time. Thus, I call upon all of you for "Don't Be Silly“ Part Two: The Interviews." I aspire to interview numerous individuals, including ADHD experts and artists in the entertainment industry. If you wish to be interviewed, please reach out to me. I would be delighted to meet with you, exchange ideas, and shed light on our experiences for the rest of the world to understand. Although, we are aware that some find us, incredibly annoying, the truth is, we are incredibly remarkable and I want to celebrate that. So I have taken the first step, and now I implore you to join me in taking the second. Thank you for watching my documentary. I eagerly anticipate our next encounter. With love, respect and the ambition to understand.

I’m Mark Hole, theholeofmark

Sweet dreams and the ecstasy
Tell me why am I here at all?
I hand tight and this raggedy drum,
Won’t let me go

I want more of an energy
so I can fight my way out of here
I’m so tired of this rackety place
please let me go

I want reach, reach out.
I want to scream
Till my screaming is all out.

All alone in the lonely world,
I can feel there is something else
A Heartbeat
Feel me kicking my feet
I wanna know
Maybe someone’s testing me
Maybe I hope the key to life
And all I have to do
Is open the door
And there you go

I’m gonna reach, reach on out
I’m gonna scream
till my scream is all out

Will You Love Again? Track 1. From "F-Sharp".

The torture of breaking up from whom you love. You know it’s over, but it’s not. You can’t remember why you're not together, only what kept you together. You’ve forgotten that you couldn’t breathe as you’re gasping for air to ask the one and only question. Will you love again? The answer is… Fuck!!!!!!

Ok let me explain by asking the question again. Will you love again? The answer, I'm afraid, is negative. Unless you have love and appreciation for yourself, it is highly unlikely that anyone else will. Furthermore, if you do not possess self-love, how can you possibly love another individual, I mean really? If you don’t look after yourself, you WILL let down the people you love and that’s not very loving now is it. No. So, it is a matter of the utmost importance, if that’s what you want and of course it would be if you knew how it felt. I for one am not sure if I do know how it feels. Perhaps I've had a taste. Now that I have discovered I have ADHD. I realise that I’ve spent the majority of my life acting a certain way. To please, or amuse others. This is all well and good and it’s certainly something I don’t want to completely stop doing, but it would be quite nice to not feel like absolute shit the whole time. So, before delving further into this matter, let us return to the initial inquiry: What does it mean to love oneself? I personally am cringing as I write this, so I have no idea how you must be feeling as you read it but I’m just trying to be brave here. Let’s just say it out loud shall we. Loving yourself, in its basic form, means taking care of oneself. It is often said that one's health is of paramount significance. Without good health, one has nothing. you must’ve heard someone say that. It is imperative to prioritise your well-being. If you are your best self then you’ll do everything better than the person you are now. Right? So the person you are now doesn’t really give a shit about you. Do they? I’m saying this to you, but mainly, I’m saying this to myself because I am someone who self sabotages constantly, despite me, knowing that I have something very important to do the next day I’ll have another drink and do whatever’s going. So that I can forget about how shit I feel. You’ve got to look after yourself because no one else will. So, how does one go about doing that? The answer is quite obvious: how does one maximise their health so that they’re thinking straight, feeling straight or bent, what evers your preference, but you have to be looking and feeling fucking ridiculously great... that’s a must and of course you have to, abstain from drinking, smoking, vaping and commit to daily gym sessions, of course you should indulge in saunas, steam rooms, cold showers and ensure you're getting an adequate intake of essential vitamins and maintaining a nutritious diet. Of course you need to eliminate excessive sugar and forgo pizza as much as possible. Although, admittedly, the occasional slice of pizza or a delightful chocolate cake is permissible in a happy life. There’s always going be a good moment for you to do all the bad things, if you’re anything like me then you will, at somepoint and it will feel absolutely wonderfully amazing. But that’s only gonna be the case if you’re doing the right things all of the other times. You have to look after this ONE BIDY so that your ONE LIFE can be enjoyed. Have as much fun as you can without hurting yourself and others, but rather benefiting yourself and others. Yes. It is crucial to begin taking care of oneself in order to reach one's full potential in terms of health. By doing so, you will ultimately develop a sense of self-worth, enabling you to confidently refuse those who do not genuinely care about you. While gaining respect from the ones that do. Excuse my bluntness, but I trust you comprehend the message I am conveying. Love me for who I am and for the qualities I possess, as I am truly exceptional. Have you ever said that to yourself? Because that was my first time and as bizarre as it felt to say it, it felt fucking good, and I think I should say it more. We should all start saying it more. Moving forward, I have created a short video with a dear friend, which serves as a demonstration of my past unhealthy and insane behavior. It is now time for me to cease my affection for Henry and instead direct my attention towards someone who genuinely appreciates me for who I am and recognises my true value, because I am truly outstanding. That’s right ladies and gentlemen, hymns, hers and thems. Say it out loud I am amazing. Once you start believing that, you start to believe it will work, and if you believe it works, then that will give you hope and if you have hope, then you are capable of anything. Much love from me. Theholeofmark. ps despite me completely loving this song, Will you love again? is not for THEHOLEOFMARK. It's time for me to leave this one behind.

Will You Love Again? (song) written and performed by Mark Hole available on my website, theholeofmark.com

Will You Love Again? music video by Arthur Redil

This video is a co-production between Mark Hole

and Ffion Jolly https://www.imdb.com/name/nm4171997/ FML Films - https://www.instagram.com/fmlfilms/

https://www.youtube.com/user/OfficialMarkHole/playlists https://www.theholeofmark.com

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NEXT UP “DON’T BE SILLY”, the second track on “F-Sharp”, will it make it as one of the songs for “THEHOLEOFMARK”

FIND SHORLTY - THE VIDEO IS BEING EDITED 6TH FEB. THEN WHEN IT’S READY IT WILL BE POSTED HERE...

Upon discovering that I have been diagnosed with ADHD, which has shed light on many things, I have come to realise that I have spent my entire life prioritising the needs and desires of others. I must emphasise that this approach never proves fruitful because it prevents one from truly being authentic, ultimately leading to the alienation of most individuals in one's life. By failing to establish personal boundaries, you inadvertently train others to disrespect you. Your inability to assert yourself by saying "no" in order to gain acceptance results in the opposite outcome. However, what else could you have expected? No one appreciates deceit or pretense. It is crucial to forgive yourself and embrace your true self. I encourage you to vocalise your determination to disregard the opinions of those who have abandoned you. Failure to do so will only contribute to the already overwhelming self-loathing, leaving you consumed by regret as you resort to unhealthy coping mechanisms such as overindulging in food, alcohol, or drugs. You mistakenly believe that someday you will convince these individuals of your worthiness and value, but deep down, you know this will never occur unless you learn to let go of those who have chosen to depart. It is their prerogative. Granted, they claimed to be your friends, and their decision to ghost you rather than offering an explanation as a friend undoubtedly hurts. However, it is ultimately your responsibility to determine your own fate. Therefore, take the necessary steps to rectify the situation. Remember, it is never too late to prevent such unfortunate circumstances from recurring and embark on a journey of self-discovery, self-acceptance, and, above all, self-love. And so, I introduce myself as THEHOLEOFMARK. Although my birth name is Mark Hole, yes that's correct. I simply must never be ashamed and have the courageI to communicate to the world that I possess an exceptional talent for singing that emanates from THEHOLEOFMARK. Let us henceforth refer to me by this name. One drawback of living with ADHD is the tendency to generate countless ideas that never come to fruition. However, thanks to my medication, I have finally acquired the ability to accomplish tasks. Get organised. Banish anxiety and actually dig myself out this living hell and scream "FUCK YOU MARK HOLE" you were a winy little bitch that was never going to make it with that kind of mind set. Consequently, I "THEHOLEOFMARK" have devised a straightforward, step-by-step system that is easily accessible, entertaining and designed not only for your benefit but, more importantly, for my own personal growth as I endeavour to extricate myself from this metaphorical pit into which I have descended. (I take great pride in my name.) This brings us to Step 1. The Beginning of "The Hole Story", "My Hole Life", "The Fire in My Hole" starts with my debut album, entitled "F-Sharp." One of the few pieces I have actually completed and the first thing that maid me believe I could actually be great at something... And the industry told me I should shelve it and move on but that is impossible for me. I can't because I completed it. I finished it and it's very good. So I simply have to show you. I must admit that while the album itself is of exceptional quality, if I may so say so myself, mainly down to the team I was working with "Kevin Poree, Matheson Bailey and some of the best musicians I have ever worked with. It does not entirely reflect my true essence. Remember I was people pleasing then. The songs and production, however, are unparalleled, and I am exceedingly proud of them. Nonetheless, I aim to curate an assortment of the finest tracks in my opinion, to create alternative versions for release, marking my experimental phase. This process is necessary to move forward and offer fresh, innovative material. That suit who I really am. If you are so inclined, I kindly request your support by following me on Instagram, TikTok and subscribing to my channel, and exploring my presence on Spotify, iTunes, and other platforms available at theholeofmark.com. I am present everywhere. Yet, the most remarkable contribution you could make is to visit my website and purchase this album directly from me, enabling me to continue pursuing what I excel at: creating music and delivering captivating performances. or if you have no money, you can download it for free in the secret room of my website. This is the sole means by which I can sustain myself. Whether or not you decide to get involved just the fact that you have read this is enough, so thank you. If you choose to give me money, which would be the most helpful. For your convenience, the album is available for purchase at https://www.theholeofmark.com/shop/f-sharp-digital-download. In conclusion, I have finally comprehended the true meaning behind "peace, love, and respect." I finally understand what that fucking means. www.theholeofmark.com

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